Chambee's Pen

Pitfall

The Devil: There's something I need to tell you.

Me: What is it?

The Devil: I'm falling. Hard. I love you.

Me: There's something I need to tell you, too.

The Devil: Oh? What is it?

Me: I am you.

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What Not to Say in Court

The Legal Foodchain

Morphology

I'm not so sure where to begin, but 2011 has been pretty odd to me. It's a year of metamorphosis, from a person to a roach, or vice versa, as how Kafka put it. It's easy to say time flies at a flutter of the butterfly's wings as soon as you reach the exit and the rest are placed on the antique shelves at the back of an attic. Because when you were in it, it felt like forever but it's all in your head and I remember the 28 year old male traveller with the same purpose who came over to my table at a rooftop restauran in Jodhpur telling me that there is no prison in the universe, not even physical ones, as the only thing that keeps you behind bars is your very own mind.

Generation Y has completely evolved from Generation X, W and the previous. Generation Y has a choice. Our forefathers did not. The day they were born, their lives have been divided according to the norms and systems built by their forefathers for the sake of convenience and to ensure every possible person, from pariah to blue blood stays under control. And remains that way. But not us. We completely fractured the whole balance. If there ever was one. If balance, as defined by them was even politically correct. We have a choice. We recognize the fact that we have one. But it's even more complicated that way because it runs infinity down the list without exhaustion. Either we grow big like a reborn phoenix or we fuck up in the ashes and get blown away to nothing.

Indeed, it's a disturbing thought because demons are everywhere and in one way or another, you're bound to be taunted by the boogeyman who will feed on to your dry bones. It's a moment of how long you'll manage not to flinch.

And I'm probably writing this, sitting on a huge boulder by the flowing river, at 9 in the morning, in a small Bhagsu village near the Himalayan range, surrounded by mule shits and little Buddhas, just because...

I'm in the midst of a quarter century age old crisis. Time to morph.

Charras aside.

Traverse the Sky

Voices ache to whisper
In the ceaseless night
To endings that seem like never
We ponder upon flights
Of staircases
To mazes
Of infinite abstractions
Fateful decisions
Lost in transitions
In an awkward stage whisper
You'll remember
The murals of episodes
We both painted
All tainted, tinted
Against the colourless sky
And I wonder why
We're never on the same leverage
Oh, my.

The Girl Who Used To Sit Still

Oh, how she dreads the morning
The glaring sun and the cold shower
A day after another
In the same, preppy suit
The worn out glasses
And the life mortgage
The world waits for no one
As the streets are full
But life runs empty
Like the night before
Where she recalls the day
She used to sit still in class
Just so she could pass
And be another lass
In that same, preppy suit
And the glasses that help her read
Till the day she stumbles
And awakes no more
And in the gray blue black
A boy touches her on the left heel
Then he kneels
"You can never sit still
Among the sounds that
Flow through your veins
So be the next kill
Drive up your own wheel"
She flutters her lids
Feels the air with her fingers
Listens to the stillness
Cranes her neck
Sees the world the way she wants to see
Lifts her chest, with pain
But lifts it anyway
Touches her tender waist
Stretches her legs
And tiptoes in the dark
No more stillness in the night
As she dances it away
Oh, how she dances
From the hips to
The tip of her fingers
In rhythm of the drumbeats
From her pounding heart
The whistles from the wind
The imaginary lyre
Breaks the stillness of the night
The stillness of her joints
"You can never walk straight
When the road bends"
In commemorating, she dances
She dances while the world waits
While her tears drop to the floor

-By Sydrah Mustaffa

Gegen Die Wand

Trailer's attractive. Someone help me find this, please? :)
*** P/S: And it even includes "After Laughter Comes Tears".

Not a Hero. No.

'Thank you' is said within a breath. Even less than a second. It's simple, basic manner and one of the few magic words that could make a difference. But its purpose is more often than not, neglected. I can't remember the last time I said those two words to my parents. Maybe I'm still angry. Maybe I'm still awkward. Regardless, we all utter and hear the same phrase here and there for each day. So, 'Thank you' gets boring. It becomes meaningless.

That's not, however, the case in UNHCR (United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees). When someone there thanks you, it bears a different meaning. Because each and every one of them goes through much harder battle than you do.

I would always remember a one, fine day when a Pakistani refugee spoke to me in Urdu: "Thank you so much. You are an angel. I would always pray to Allah for your blessing. And when my children would ever make it to Malaysia, I would tell them to pray to Allah for you, too." I, like the rest of the world, find gratitude as a mere courtesy but that moment kept me in silence for a while. Within split seconds, my mind whirled like a vortex. In my 24 years of living, I have never been bothered about religion. And here it was, on that day, I just found out that someone, a complete stranger, is willing to pray for me when I, my self am not even willing to pray.

So, thank you.